Pupdate: June 2021

How is it going?

Well. It‘s going really well, compared to when he moved in in January. I am starting to fully enjoy my walks with Lucas. Although he can be very annoying (he‘s a male dog, he has to sniff everything…), still wants to eat too much from the street and can be quite a brat, ignoring me, bark at other dogs… I love him and I love our walks, nonetheless.

It has become such a routine. Getting up in the morning, go for the first walk, food for Lucas, Cappuccino for me. Our mornings look all the same, but it is good to have this routine – for him and for me. It improved my mental health to get up at almost the same time every day, because I also go to bed at around the same time every evening.

During working days, I am strictly keeping my times and breaks. At noon, I go out with Lucas for about 1h. We don‘t only walk, but normally I also play with him, let him play on his own with pine cones or let him seek for treats in the grass, so he has some brain work to do, too. I think he really enjoys these action driven activities we do together.

In the evening, I give him food and we go out later after that. Normally, now that temperatures allow it, I take my time with him, doing some extra walking exercise to keep up those muscles. He needs them to have a sturdy body, since he is such a long dog and I don‘t want him to get joint or back issues. And, it‘s good for me, too. Not that I lost weight, but at least I can easily fulfill my daily step goal of 10k steps per day. And, man, that feels really good! 

Yeah, keeping a dog is not only just having a pet, it’s having a partner at your side, it‘s a commitment and a hobby. It takes a lot of your time. I never expected it to be this stressful and fulfilling at the same time. I wouldn’t want it any other way by now.

Okay, so what else.

We still have to train the „staying alone“ and some other things. And I still want him to „ask, if it‘s okay to take X food from the street“, before he just does it (so I have control over it and can allow of decline it). Here in Berlin, it‘s a big issue and a big problem. People leave their garbage everywhere (yeah, I know other cities are not better, but we don‘t live in „other cities“, we live in Berlin) and it‘s pretty annoying to tell your dog like „no, no no… no!“ all the time. So I am working to fix this, since a “no” kind of leaves a negative smack to out walkies, and after all, I really want us to enjoy it while simultaneously learn from each other. Recently, some new problems popped up and I feared it would get out of hand. But actually, maybe, I was overreacting and it stressed me and Lucas.

I always have to remind myself that my dog is just as relaxed and/or stressed as I am. The end of the leash, it’s me who’s holding it, after all. I am trying to focus on not being too impulsive, stressing or pressing about what I want from him and I think it already showed in one of our walks. I hope we are making progress here. Nevertheless, I think I will consult a trainer to fix some of mine and Lucas behaviors. It might be a good idea.

And I also should not give him too much food… I‘m working on this, too. It‘s not his fault and so far, the only one of us being overweight is me. 😉 So that‘s under control, but still. „Doggy look cute? Aww.. give treats.“ – I’m a bad person, haha.

I’m just a happy, happy guy, I’m just a happy, happy, happy guy!

I got over my puppy blues and am now just so happy to have him here with me. It‘s like it was meant to be. But also, not really. We have to keep working on our relationship. But we‘re on the very best way to have a really intense and awesome time together! 

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Testing: TooGoodToGo

TooGoodToGo Logo

Maybe you‘ve heard of it already, but here in short: TooGoodToGo is an app that helps restaurants, bakeries and other shops minimize their food waste. As a customer, you can choose from different offers and you receive surprise bags or whole meals for a reduced price. It‘s really a neat idea and since I live in the very heart of Berlin now, I might as well try this out, is wat I thought.

Bag full of bakery goods

So I went ahead and after a long time browsing the app, I finally found something that caught my fancy and I ordered it. A surprise bag of baked goods for 3,50€ To be picked up between 19:30 and 20:00. Alright, I grabbed my dog and we took a stroll to said bakery and, oh my goodness?! We got a surprise bag indeed! It was SO HEAVY!

At home I checked what‘s inside: 3 (big!) sandwiches, which I immediately put into the fridge, so they wouldn‘t go bad, and everything you see on the photo on the side. It is really a lot and I can easily live quite some days off of what I got for mere 3,50€. I‘m not only very surprised by this bag, I will also totally do it again to see what else I can get. 😏

Seek yourself ∞ what matters most

Seek yourself ∞ what matters most

This symmetry sketch is sort of vent art-ish for me, so this is getting quite personal here.

Last year around this time, so in June 2020, I had a severe mental breakdown. It was caused by a massive burn-out which was caused by me ignoring my depressions. Long story short: I went to clinic, had therapy, got meds, I‘m feeling way better now. But this event and everything that followed left an impression on me.

Ever since this all happened, I try hard to not fall into the same old habits and thinking spirals. And it‘s really hard to work on that, but I think I’m on the right path with it. And it also works way better than it did a year ago or before the breakdown. And I‘m really helpful for that.

So, what‘s with this picture now?

Seek yourself. Who are you and what defines you? What are the achievements of your (recent) past?

I, for example, have kinda learned to accept myself as I am. It takes time, though, and practice and it‘s tough. Not gonna lie. But I know myself good enough now to take care of myself, when I need it.

And what did I achieve? A whole lot. I managed to finish my Bachelors and my Masters, I got a job that pays the rent, and I‘m still doing art on the side. just to name a few.

What matters most. Ask yourself. What are the things in life that matter the most to you? Can you figure out what does not benefit your mental health? Can you remove that from your life? If you can answer the latter with „yes“, then go ahead.

Yes, it‘s easier said than done. But what is not? Life is a challenge and while we‘re all not up to it at some point, we gotta push through.

Seek yourself ∞ What matters most.

Website in progress

So, hello there. As you can see (maybe), this website is still a construction site. I‘m working to make it look better and I hope my webshop will also work in the end. It‘s super new to me to host my own little shop system, so bare with me if it doesn‘t run as smoothly as the big selling sites.

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